Boiling Water

I found this post I never published, it’s about a year old and it still resonates with me.  The art of letting things go and speaking your mind is so important.  But it takes practice.

I heard this song the other day, it struck a chord with me, actually it inspired me to write again.

Have you ever had those days, or weeks, that are so stressful you feel like you are about to explode… I have and recently they have been around finances, growing pains, relationships, expectations, personal lessons and being stuck in the middle.  This song made me realize that I let these things consume me sometimes.  It likes I’m waiting for the world to burn me but instead I am the culprit.  I have left my inner world on high and it started to boil over as a result my thoughts have become negative, my words become heated, and I start to burn myself and those around me.

I have strayed from a predictable some what guided path and I all of a sudden I realize I am in hot water.  The thing is I have allowed myself to get here, I thrive from change but I sometimes I expect too much from myself and others.  I’ve neglected some habits that make me a better person and allow me to lead a happier life with healthier relationships.

“You think it’s so bad
But you don’t even try
Count what you don’t have
Boils up in your mind, yeah”

I forget that every minute I have a choice… how will I act rather than react, how will I let this impact me?

I have driven myself to a state of insanity by not taking time to slow down, to appreciate, to breathe, to give thanks.  I have forgotten about self-care, this is beyond the everyday tasks of eating, cleaning, and sleeping.  I am talking about taking the time for myself, being patient with myself, loving myself.  For me this means practicing yoga, meditating, reading, learning, being in nature, sitting on a rock, writing, pursuing something important to me.  This form of self-care is the yin that balances all the yang in my life.  I’ve been balanced in my life before and I am more kind, patient, accepting, and I get a glimpse of the bigger picture.  At the end of the day I need to remember to release, to take time to myself and realize life has an ironic way of teaching us.  At the end of the day I have a roof over my head, I am loved, I am healthy.

The question is… Do you want to do the work? Do you want to remain complacent and agitated or do you want to soothe those burns your mind has caused?